If I’m completely honest, I have tried to write this page more times than I should probably admit. Truth is, on one hand, I find it hard to describe myself and, on the other hand, I’m putting an extreme amount of pressure on myself to make this “About me” section perfect. I am basically being a perfectionist, which in itself, is a trauma response. Ironic, for someone sharing how to heal trauma, isn’t it?
One key thing making it difficult for me to describe who I am is that, in a way, I have no idea.
See, one thing abuse does to you is put you down so much that you end up doubting everything about yourself. A healing journey isn’t just about healing your trauma, it’s also about discovering who you were meant to be before you went through the abuse. I’m still figuring out who I am, who I am, and not what others want me to be. So, what do I know so far about myself?
I’m Rosie, my closest friends call me Ro, an ambivert who loves spending time near any body of water and nature, which I love to photograph. I spent my childhood reading and writing, and have recently discovered my love for hiking and cycling. I don’t like crowds and prefer small groups, and if I could choose between people and animals, I would probably go for the animals. I consider coffee to be my soul-mate, caramel my side-piece, and french fries are my kryptonite. Oh, and I’m very sarcastic (coping mechanism, anyone?)
I am kind and like to help others, making it hard to set up boundaries against those who want to take advantage of me. I used to think that it was a weakness, now I see my kindness as a strength. I’m incredibly empathetic and always make it a point of trying to see every side of a story, before forming my own opinion. I am also outspoken – or learning to become it again, after years of being put down for my opinions.
For the most part, I like making those around me feel good and, more importantly, like they belong, without losing myself in the process. This is also one of the things those who know me always tell me, that I make them feel seen.
I’ve always been interested in psychology and the human mind and, fully aware of how cliché it sounds, I can say I’m passionate about it! Every aspect of neuroscience and psychology, the way the brain works, the way trauma is stored in our bodies (sometimes for generations), and how we can heal ourselves. Classic psychology often fails to see the connection between trauma and mental health and I believe emotional health should be discussed in schools from the very beginning.
I may be still learning who I am, but so far, I’m liking the person I am becoming.